Doing things afraid
I failed my goal for the year of writing two posts a week. I completely missed making a blog post last weekend.
A lot has happened in two weeks.
A lot has happened since the start of the year. My direct manager moved to Seattle and managed us remotely. We hired a new full time developer. My co-leader at the Vancouver office resigned to go back to school. Then, we hired a new business development (sales) person. It's been a lot of changes in four months. I am not good with change. It takes me awhile to get used to people.
I was going through the first four months of 2018 scared. It changed at the start of April when I stopped focusing on myself and how I feel and decided to focus on how I could help others. The last four weeks I am more focused on helping our new sales person know our application and our system. The game changer, honestly, is letting Gordon know that I am learning sales from the new guy. He asked if I was enjoying it and I said yes.
Next thing I know, I am Customer Success Manager. Of course, there's more to it and I just don't know what to write.
Right now, I feel scared and unsure. God, please help me.
We'll see how the next months will go. I am scared but I will keep moving forward - focusing on how to help my teammates and our customers.
A lot has happened in two weeks.
Work Permit
First, Jomar received his work permit! Finally! I should do a post on how to get your boyfriend in the Philippines to Canada and how Jomar and I did it. He is still looking for employment as an Android Developer. With God's grace, I know Jomar will find his own Gumstix. A company that will embrace and appreciate his skills and talents as much as Gumstix did for me.Promotion
Second, I got promoted last week. Gordon and I had late lunch at The Bridges Restaurant. It was my first one-on-one with our CEO and I was scared. Hence, the title doing things afraid. I realized that fear or being scared is normal. We all feel it. The difference would be if we let fear paralyzed us from moving forward. |
| Beautiful day to have lunch at The Bridges Restaurant |
A lot has happened since the start of the year. My direct manager moved to Seattle and managed us remotely. We hired a new full time developer. My co-leader at the Vancouver office resigned to go back to school. Then, we hired a new business development (sales) person. It's been a lot of changes in four months. I am not good with change. It takes me awhile to get used to people.
I was going through the first four months of 2018 scared. It changed at the start of April when I stopped focusing on myself and how I feel and decided to focus on how I could help others. The last four weeks I am more focused on helping our new sales person know our application and our system. The game changer, honestly, is letting Gordon know that I am learning sales from the new guy. He asked if I was enjoying it and I said yes.
Next thing I know, I am Customer Success Manager. Of course, there's more to it and I just don't know what to write.
Resignation
Third and last, my direct manager (the one in Seattle) just resigned. I found out yesterday before the rest of the team. I was devastated. Gordon said that I will cry. I didn't. Well, ever since forever, I have been good at not crying even if I want to or even if my heart is breaking.Right now, I feel scared and unsure. God, please help me.
We'll see how the next months will go. I am scared but I will keep moving forward - focusing on how to help my teammates and our customers.
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